Somehow my life ahead just....automatically piece out on its own as in somebody is watching over me..thanks God ... im starting to miss my dog...everything little things become important to me now. Its always better to shut up then yak over things one will regret ...so will watch my mouth from now on...

tag along my bro n his fren to town n i was happily shopping away !

Not that i bought alot of things but... just realise i haven been enjoying myself since month ago..

the feeling is so........... unfamilar. I was kinda down over what got over me and ....happy that there is always glimpse of hope for everything..(was feeling v tired on our way to town...after shopping awhile for some stuff..im superly energise n yeapy) i realise too that im starting to keep things to myself...its...safe n i believe somehow i am able to solve it one way or another...

i always tell myself that since im already on this Earth..just give e best in everything ?? n so i planned out my schdule for this upcoming weeks...n was quite pleased... will update again about the result of the 'plan'

e day my family left for HOliday !

glad that they went on holiday n enjoy themselves....

n oso glad that i can drive my mum's car out =)

Im smart enough to own up that i went to look for e 'hidden' key n

drove her car out....muhahahahaa frankly using a few paper n cover it wun help becus im

detective tay....oh n e fact that i own up is becus i wan her to know I CAN DRIVE on my own...w/lo her....AND becus e meter for fuel/petrol significantly drop/move down by ONE level..when initially is FULL. AND becus i know i wun get to park back e nice spot she had in e fir$ts place.

I actually went down IMM (bloodily far for a lazy person like me) to collect e notes regarding license for powercraft boat...this is purely interest as i felt that its a waste of money ...SHIt

and met up ysoon at night for a free lesson on fine arts and freehand macromedia...im so jealous that he is doing something he truly has interest in and has REAL gd pay.. drawing out 100 diff posture is better than balancing a tedious accouting thingy ya......

A small heart with big dream.

this guy is soO suave(n sexy) to me his name is 'Minwoo' from shinhwa..n even his name sound so cute to me ... he can DANCE really well even though his a little short compare to the rest of the member ... =) MR lee

I was ..feeling so all over the place...so upset disappointed that....while things normally work that way for me...when im tooo upset i will feel rather crazy n happy for no reason n TADA !!!!! im so lupy hapy for nothing..n fortunately im feeling gd. GodBless ...because i was waiting for the day i heavily cried it out n get rid of it ...but no....n infact i feel that i have become stronger....

i learn to depend more on myself n myself ... independent lead to mature ? no...but yes for myself .... i started having lots of little plan for myself n was quite satisfied for making all e small little steps. I can practically feel my brain evolving into something with more substance...f wad am i toking about...anyway...,i also realise that those u least expect are those that give you e surprise =)

im oso having new perspective of life....like wad the hell.. shall walk n plan one step at a time...

Life is dull like hell these days...but at least going to work is just like..going for some community service ? or helping up event or something.. n my boss is going to introduce some membership thingy with freebies n invites to parties.. of cos i do know that some are real bullshit.. but since im working for him..i'll make sure i get one...

Forgotten wad song i was listening to while i was resting at home ... suddenly my little party mode is On ! so i browse through my hp n tada !! decided to pm this fellow name 'small qiang' ..someone whose...nice n been there when im working...n i actually said that i wana tag along with him to party... but according to him..it is his turn to 'rest' now... hopefully i can get to know more nice people like him..

18, 19 , 20 this month will be my ................................ALONE-ness day...my whole family will be away for holiday...y am i at home ??? because i just took leave not long ago n i dun like to tag along...

im so disappointed with.ppl..ppl who happens to be e one u really care...part of it is really my fault ok MY FAULTT.....( its always e one u really care that will hurt u the most )- words i got from my enemy-turn acquintance friend.

think i really need some yoga kind of ting..BUT ! i totally got no interest in yogo n its a waste of time of me... personally.

yest i experienced a worst BUS TRIP i ever encountered.....here it goes...
i was taking bus 65 from Plaza SIng...n there will be this route where it will go through e 'indian street'...or is it 'bagala ??' anyway... a big group of them boarded e bus you will experience wad u will experience...but its ok as i try to compromise..im a good cititzen..then next is this inconsiderate guy sitting beside me who was reading a newspaper....n he will somehow stretch or open alittle more to read his newspaper.....n hello im just beside you..i need my own space you see.....then i was listening to mp3 when this aunti .....i tot she was snoring LouDYLY...until ahwile i realise she was SPITTING on e bUS....not once but a number of times !!!!! im not sitting beside her but my SEAT is beside her SEAT...gosh....next moment i dono wad she was doing then she used a newspaper to cover her face.....LATER i realise she was eating secretly behind e newspaper...or digging her nose la....a mixture of sympathy plus gross out....
i need more holiday ...im going bonker soon..

oh celebrated my little birthday at Manhanttan thks to kel n was quite touched.. its not easy to organise a meet up n i totally understand.

after work meet up with mark pasta m. n was glad...that we r still in contact..n he is actually organising a chalet at SENtoSA just because one of our friend ask for it!!!! cant wait ! so cooool. He is one of e nicest guy i ever met..he knows how to treat a person right n make a person feels good. He is optimisitc and always know what to do 'next'. N so he happen to be my favourite horoscope "Aeris"(not sure if it is spelled this way) ! Even losing our way become an advanture ride to us when he is around. n not forgetting his a little too generous n accidentally pampered us alittle too much. n later i know the reason for his good personality...that is ....HIS MUM !

His mummy is soooo hospitality that makes me feel so..."welcome back home" at his house..she will goes like " dear your wan any drink?".....my reply..."coffee thanks !"...

then she will ask"how many sugar cube ? 1, 2 or 3??"

i will go " anything is fine thks !!"

then she will ask again..."breaad ? toasted ? jam ? kaya ?"

i will reply again " im not hungry thanks alot !!!"

she will reply again " no no..its a must....i make 2 for you ok ?"

"ok"

n its finally over....(by the way this is a "cut" version) it is actually alot more !!!!!

no way i can be like her....unless my son/daughter's friend r realli nice.....if i will actually secretly pray that they leave e house earlier as u know how noisy young children can get.....

then again im secretly refering about my bro's fren muahahahahah....

his fren...normally e girls will have this HIGH pitch laughin or screaming..probably playing some PS game...which is damn irritating...

n e guys...(actually not ALL but SOME)....the guys will go...."NABEY !!!.........#$%&* ...

WA LAO !!!!.... but then again...some r realli nice peeps..even nicer than ppl i know.

was realli surprised when e Animal Farmies APPEARED outside my house with cake ...n i finallly a got photo album in my room! i tried to put up one before..but not long after i took it down again..i dono y ...but im sure thise new one will be on display for good. Thanks njy for spending some time on doing e stuff as i know she is busy...so touched.. =)

interest vs Money which do u choose.....shit...

I wan a BIKE !!!!!! cant stand e stupid shuttle bus that only comes at every 1 hour interval.....theres no way i can get to work if i will to miss e bus ...so a taxi comes in to chop off my pay even more... ><

..awaiting jessie n bun to come home sooon.

Long story short..im back from that supposedly boring genting..but ...TADA..its was brighten up alittle as we manage to sneak into casino.. i tried rolex 'lun pan?' for e first time n !! i WON S$100+ !! n alvin my so-called partner for e trip won S$1000+ ! walao.....so jealous...i can hear e "ka ching" in my ear ....thats because im sitting beside ....ya know lady luck ... n nothing much but get to mit up with my pri sch mate 'shu yun' ...n her friends...no wander she 'SHU' at her jackpot! keke ... n though i have went to e haunted house or potianak house?...im still afraid of going in again..because im a scary cat ><...n so i tag along with them..gosh theres this damn irritating 'working part time as a ghost' .... who gave me a shock...shit...because actually i saw him..(not easy to spot someone in e dark ok...since i got a little night blindness) n ..he noted me too... i then continue my path..thinking "ok i saw u i got a shock happy ??cya...." little did i know that when i walked PAST him...he tried to grab my leg !!! that was FReaky !!!!