brand new 2007..Wee !~ startin to get worry when this tots pops into my head...

life is not all about studyin, not abt working, but LIVING your LIFE !! so all my things left undone..this is so unlike me.. yest was working cum sober--ing..ala don even know wad im doing... but was feeling ok except waiting 4 cab... free C n A thats wad life shld be all about ... go ahead be gone with it.. one solution to get those upsetting tots away is to get myself busy...sp pathetic me.

aah..jus felt like cryin..y din i do anything to get wad i wan..so stupid me..

jus realise that its weird to hear from ex that they gt new gf/bf....

anyway..yest xmas eve was working but enjoyin at e same time .. supposedly to turn out better if not for me shitty attitude.. feel soo hurt to cause non-sensensical bad mood to others.

Fortunately e misunderstdg was clear...but still....

luckly yest nite end with some comfort..hmm...reach home at 5am n for e first time my mum can joke wif me despite my disappearing act. shall pledge to myself to be a better person..think before i speak.. no throwing of temper.. not goin to do anything that will regret.. not going to do anything to hurt others... receive a big baby bottle wif stupid mashmellow n body shop craneberry set. haa. n more gift to cum ...(if im nt wrong..) :)

tink im havin disorder bipoloar or depresion la..ala wadever..but den again im probably tinkin too much... knw someone whose jus someone..tot might know him beter one day(jus as frens i mean) tillll.....abt 2 mths since i las saw him..unexpected things hapen n him might not make it..as in he might die sooon... so i stop n tink wads life all about ....huh huhuhuhuhu...
need a break n this 2 wk sch break came jus in time... yest for e first time kana pylon on kawasaki ..CTE back home... cant help visualising all e bad thing that might hapen along e way. richie rich.. xmas cumin. dun hav e habit of buyin present.. n e one n only gift i personally bot so far actually goes my pt workg toot....shared one gift wif bro to stan... so actually most of e gift im only chirpin in e money..n sharing wif others.. first present recevid so far is from my bro too....a "card" holder in my fav red.

Nafa plus b. lesson n im drained. Mit my bro n uncle at changi v for mug of beer.. n im nearing K.O.....Miss DXO las nite..jus to do my tutorial n i ended up watching TV ..so shitty..starting to have enuf of me..hope im not falling into depression plssss...2 days of work per week plus 2 b lesson plus one day sch work..plus one day family day..n im only left wif one day for myself. Not forgetg one day to miss my home n im left wif.............Zero day for social life. gosh.

las nite was ...funny, tired yet at e right mood. Mus be e yellow shirt i wear that creates e "i love myself" mood.. was a little relieved that i din quit my part time on impulse again. get to knw 2 bros,Jerry n Oliver.... lots of new records broken..one of it is to sit in a real sport car home after work...(forgt abt e brand)..i was highly inspired that i shall make it my goal by 25 to get my own car wif my own money .. E rite "high" is at e rite peak..compare to some sad case soul who vomited n fainted lol...

Xmas is coming..so "yeah" kinda mood.not becus of present, no snow no real santa is ok..e ambience is gd enuf. Gathering n party is bonus..come to tink abt it..if only sg snow...tot i saw little snow coming down last year near Dec end..maybe this year will be more "obvious" then nxt year n nxt... market for sweater in SG will rise in years time. n im thinkin too much.
was almost dozing off while doing tut(so unlike me)..n suddenly Xmas carol start la la-ing on e radio...if only xmas can extend n chinese new year can do without.

my life is on rollorcoaster ride again..feel myself trap in rat race..work n spend..life in is getting sian-er since god knws when..so my lastest interest is getting bike license..lol. as usual..i nearly gif up halfway due to short span of interest..but luckly i din.which leads to me feelin drain n haven being out relaxin ...
haven gt e chance to tennis wif MK, excercise (NOT for e nafa but myself), salad buffet frm my bro, shoppin trip, finish reading my books,catch up my slp..jus realise i shld learn to be more friendly la fc. today met tis fellw who happen to be in my sec sch which i dono off..n he joind "tink you can dance" thats so cool of him...
n yest i was drivin wif auto car to expressway for e FIRST time..n unknowingly hitting meter at 100+ ..n e fact that im driving wif alcohol..but luckly back at home one piece..
recently kip bumpin into werido peeps..which total freaks me out..to be precise is weirdy guyss..of cos not all guys r..but jus 2 is more than enuf ..n its a bad sign.shit.

Darn,totaly forget abt e stupid resume that iv to hand in 2 days time n tml i got to work.Fark.suddenly life seems so pack..try resting whole day today n i felt like im wasting time away.. feeling downright stresssful over nth ..n im startin to tink alot.. kip on feelin that theres
something left undone..but dono wads it.gt to slp.