SAYING " NEXT !" with excitement...

thats how i am goin to deal with it.

This blog have been stagnant for a long long time...
still, it is going to be my hide out place.

How can i not blog about .......F..(F for Fate)
Everything seems so perfect.. Even the slighest not perfect still seems nice to me.
But things do not always go this way. Life had to be so ..harsh.
Relationship takes 2 hand to clap.
Why the fate if we are not goin to be together. Feel so tortured.
All the sweeet things we do. I never treasure thing till its gone. Always.
Then again, this time round is not my fault...i did try i mean. Im willing to.
Is it the wrong timing. It must be.
I am willing to trade in many thing in return just to get back together.
Thats where i realise i have accidentally drop to close to heart.
So much so that i feel ...hurt.
I feel tired. Not sure how to go about living the next few many days till im past this stupid phase.
I just want to get over it. It wasn't easy either.
Feel so stupid.
F is not worth the heartache..still alittle part of me feels that things did not
work out is because of me n my ego and my ....
anyway......im still thinking of ways to get over.
Life is nothing without the one you wan to share it with.

Lets jus say life is complicated.

OK before 1 story fully comes to an end...another one unfold.

So dramatic ya. WTF.

Anyway. stress out ppl do crazy thing.

I saw the different side of me..

Giving ppl name n bullying ppl...and...whinning....n ....

i miss you. Hai.

ok so the issue is....y do i keep having this feeling that something big/exciting
is about to happen... whats wrong with me...

i cant feel myself...felt like im living somebody's life.

I have learnt a thing or 2 though...after so many wrong move.

I still miss ......the old home once in a while.

Im holding faith ...that whatever happen is for the best.

Im willing to trade money for happiness n things i wana do :)

Issue 1
If only i have elder sibling...he or she could have warn me whats
ahead in life.... I always ended up ...missing alot of thing.

Issue 2
I can't stop ppl from judging me, but i can't stop myself from getting upset
about being mis-judged.

I like mayonise , egg n cheese n waffle n bagel n orange juice .....Im hungry.

Last 2 day was quite a bad day for me...

I feel like...................... running away from home.

Not that anything happen.

I just dono why.

I agreed to do a 1 time event job...backstage.

For a lamborghni membership event ...

SO! Im suppose to assist them(Models) in their dressing.

Felt like i JUST won a Backstage Pass for "Fashion Show"!!!

Anyway...
I was helping one of them with the legging....and.........

and i told her that she look like one of the models in "American Nxt Top model"

AND she said......... " Ya..im Jaslene" !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and i can't help but exclaim OMGGGGGGGG

She is my favourite winner in the season that i like MOST !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Can't believe she fly all the way from America to Singapore (and i manage to catch her)
...n she is so...................... down-to-earth

(AND i still get paid for working. Hee)

Somehow...she inspire me alot..................................

(why do i sound like a little girl again)