ok so the issue is....y do i keep having this feeling that something big/exciting
is about to happen... whats wrong with me...

i cant feel myself...felt like im living somebody's life.

I have learnt a thing or 2 though...after so many wrong move.

I still miss ......the old home once in a while.

Im holding faith ...that whatever happen is for the best.

Im willing to trade money for happiness n things i wana do :)

Issue 1
If only i have elder sibling...he or she could have warn me whats
ahead in life.... I always ended up ...missing alot of thing.

Issue 2
I can't stop ppl from judging me, but i can't stop myself from getting upset
about being mis-judged.

I like mayonise , egg n cheese n waffle n bagel n orange juice .....Im hungry.

Last 2 day was quite a bad day for me...

I feel like...................... running away from home.

Not that anything happen.

I just dono why.

I agreed to do a 1 time event job...backstage.

For a lamborghni membership event ...

SO! Im suppose to assist them(Models) in their dressing.

Felt like i JUST won a Backstage Pass for "Fashion Show"!!!

Anyway...
I was helping one of them with the legging....and.........

and i told her that she look like one of the models in "American Nxt Top model"

AND she said......... " Ya..im Jaslene" !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and i can't help but exclaim OMGGGGGGGG

She is my favourite winner in the season that i like MOST !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Can't believe she fly all the way from America to Singapore (and i manage to catch her)
...n she is so...................... down-to-earth

(AND i still get paid for working. Hee)

Somehow...she inspire me alot..................................

(why do i sound like a little girl again)

I wish ....


to have a normal good job with normal good pay.





Not too much to ask right??


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Im never into Korean stuff...but i shall give it an exception

this time round.......

Im still a little girl at heart :)

Choi Si Won ! ( *smitten)

I hate everything that was going on right now.

Everything .....

Just so that i wun make the ppl who care...worrying for me...

I always try to put up a brave front.....

It is so tiring................................................

I WAN THE BEACH !!!!!!!

Sometime theres just too many thoughts in me...

Sometime i just cant help, but foreseeing things way in advance....

Sometime i just care too much....

So...im really tired now and going to bed.

......oh........AND there is just too many unneccessary pressure around me...

Its too much.

I wana leave.